For  going on eleven years  lung cancer took my husband  . He was a long time smoker  . Previous to his death  I had cared for him , watched the man I loved become a shelll of a man,  several strokes rendered  him  paralyzed , I prayed I screamed at GOD  are you deaf  . No answer came  I walked around in a fog . people trying to console me . I smiled and  thanked them  . How could I go on he was my life  . we married at  seventeen and fifteen  . Together forty nine years  and six children  , who were all grown  . First time death touched me in a real way . I waS LOST SHOW ME THE WAY TO GO HOME  .  It was two years later  death climbed out of the pit of hell to drag  me in it again . This time it was my youngest daughter .  Her struggle with  MS  had affected  her reasoning ability and she took a medication  that one of the side effects was blood clots in the lungs  and may cause death  . It did   ! Oh GOD why have you closed your ears  ? I have done all I can do . A husband and two beautiful boys  have no mom  . help me GOD make sense of whats happening ? I am not Job  or am I ?  Again the curse from the pit struck  another daughter  with breast cancer of which she had them both removed and praise GOD she has been cancer free for over a year  . You would thing we were done with the curse oh no my eldest daughter told me she had to have surgery to remove two lumps in her throat  and in doing so since its highly likely there are cancerous cells  they will remove her thyroid gland  . So here we are  again  . I hurt for them the only bandage I can cover their owiee with is  the healing hand of GOD  HE says he will never leave us nor forsake us , His HOLY SPIRIT dwells within us and HE speaks in a still small voice . I need to just shut up  and listen HE has heard me  and in HIS time HE will answer